There is this huge tabu that surrounds self confidence and it baffles me to no end. In today' world where everyone wants to be body positive and proud of who they are, the moment that this becomes an outward manifestation, things turn sour. We see it all the time in the media, with Kanye being my all-time favourite example of this. He is constantly getting dragged in the media for his unapologetic level of ego but why is that such a bad thing? I love the fact that he is so sure and comfortable in who he is that he doesn't care about being loud and proud about it! So I feel like following in Yeezy's steps (minus the blonde brows, because I don't think I can quite pull those off) and saying yes, I'm the shit. Yes, I've spent hours a day working towards a better me, learning to love myself and not being afraid to show off every curve and stretch mark. Yes I deserve to stand up and be proud of myself in hopes that others will feel empowered enough to do the same.
This isn't about being an egotistical idiot (**cough.. Trump.. cough**) but rather, it is about being proud of who you are and showing that to the world. I've spent the better half of my young life always looking to others for that sense of confidence, but I feel that I have now reached the point where the opinions of others no longer even phases me. The absolute certainty I have in who I am negates any outside influence, allowing me to be unapologetically me. 2016 was a rough year and I have spent this month wallowing in it. My lack of creativity and drive landed me in a dark place that had me questioning a lot of what I do. I purposefully pulled back from everything, including social media, this month because the sadness, death and tension around the globe started to weigh heavily on me. And just when we all thought that we were done with 2016, my boy G. Michael left us too (RIP sweet angel). But, as with the many lows I've hit lately, surrounding myself with family was the cure. Now recharged and with a renewed sense of purpose, I'm back.
And flyer than ever.
My 2017 mood can be summed up by one phrase: taking no nonsense and speaking my mind always. This year there will be no holding back. I will dress as I please, continue advocating for young boys and girls and anti-bullying initiatives and focus on building a better me. This should be a fun year and I cannot wait to share this journey with all of you.
Love & light